Where to Begin...

Hello, Everyone!

I'm excited to be sharing snip-its of my crazy adventure in motherhood with a world full of people who just may know where I'm coming from...most days.

Life Before Staying Home

In a former life, a mere 2 months ago, I was a full time manager for a company that serves the day-to-day needs of adult individuals with a variety of physical and/or cognitive challenges. My job was challenging, fulfilling and different every day. There aren't many positions out there that put a smile on your face the way mine did. So why leave?

It had been my lifelong dream that should I be blessed with the privilege of motherhood, I'd be able to stay home with my children and nurture them through their growing years. Unfortunately, when the opportunity arose, and my life as a mommy began, there was no financial way for me to do it. Life changed in January of 2008 when my newspaper reporter husband was offered a position in media relations for a large scientific laboratory and his income alone was much more than our current combined salary. Still, I had been working at my company for 8 years and grew to truly love the people that I provided services for. It felt like walking away from my 2nd family. In August of '08, when that pregnancy test confirmed my suspicions, it was time to strongly consider a change. As an experienced mom, when you see those 2 little lines staring back at you again you immediately do 2 things: 1. Wipe the shock off your face and deliver the news to your husband and 2. start crunching numbers. As smoke rose from my fingertips and my husband chased my 2 older boys around it became more and more clear that by the time I paid for the childcare of 3 children, I was basically going to be working for a job title and a couple of big macs. I still couldn't commit, but around week 26 of my pregnancy, I started having complications with my pregnancy. Because of my first pregnancy, which ended in my near death, an 11 week premature son, an immeasurable loss, and the label of high risk, the doctors thought that the stress of my position wasn't good for either the baby or me. I still wrestled with the decision for a few weeks but ultimately, I felt that it was a sign that it was now or never.

So Here I Am...

So now, I'm 30, staying at home with my three sons. Kyan is a precocious 3 1/2 year old, Jaxon will be 2 in about a month and Devin just turned 6 weeks old yesterday. I expected the job to be a challenge...but nothing could have prepared me for the beautiful, awful, elating, exhausting and all too worth it roller coaster I'm riding.

In my upcoming blogs I will delve into the past, gush (and honestly, probably rant) about the present and speculate about the future. Thank you for boarding the roller coaster with me...its bound to be a bumpy ride.